Author

Subject: White Chocolate Anxiety

Favonius (Liam)

06:58 03/07/2000 

I was in a doctor’s office with an ex-girlfriend and a very good female friend.

They both needed to see a doctor, although I have no idea why. The receptionist told me if "anything had to be done " it had to be approved by a family member.

She then showed me a form I could sign that would make me instantly married to either or both of them so that I could sign the medical approval. This seemed perfectly sound in the dream.

At the same time we had been given or even awarded some "very special" large blocks of white chocolate. But my friend, Claire, was upset because the letter T had been melted into her block and she wanted it to be perfect. Apparently I had simultaneously chopped the chocolate up into bits in anticipation of a "chocolate class" that never took place.

Next I am at a big sprawling house and my ex-wife lives there. I am trying to reach this certain store on the phone to replace the white chocolate blocks. But the phone demands that I do some fancy video game thingy before the call will go through.

Then I cannot even dial out properly. It’s very frustrating.

Note:

I see a pattern in my dreams here of simple tasks becoming impossible and frustrating.

Dream edited for easier reading - JT, 2005

Angela

11:06 03/07/2000 

Hi Liam.

Anything in blocks makes me head straight for those inner obstacles. You have chocolate blocks. I am remembering my corn walls.

So, if you are with girlfriends, my guess is that this may be your feminine side needing some attention -- possibly something you need to marry into your soul in order to be healed...

It seems as if you have yourself perfectly prepared for the healing. You are receptive to it (receptionist)and you are willing to marry these feminine aspects of yourself. But, in the meantime you have been given a block -- disguised as a gift (and chocolate at that!). How very clever of you! But even more clever, you made it white chocolate -- the antithisis of itself!

Are you struggling with your inner opposites?

I love that your friend's name is Claire -- CLARITY -- Claire 'T'!! I almost went off on a whole Thomas theme there, then realized the simplicity of the Claire T...

On the one hand, perhaps you are distressed because your block is no longer perfect. I think that might represent how we like to hang on to those things that hold us back... (I'm very good at this! Perhaps this is not the case for you though.) Also, there is the other part that is very receptive to turning your block into something else. You've chopped it up in anticipation of being taught something.

That the ex-wife appears directly after the class that never took place, leads me to question that maybe this ['ex'it] is part of the block. What if it means that when you are 'exiting' you are unable to retrieve what you need in order to get past these blocks?

Is your communication with yourself being intercepted by distractions? Video games (litteraly or figuratively)? Thingies of some kind? Or perhaps there is a wee bit of running away in there somewhere?

Some thoughts for today.

Angela.

Favonius (Liam)

15:35 03/07/2000 

Angela!

You are so F***** awsome! How do you get these so bang on every time for me? The only thing I am not so clear on is what it is that constitutes my feminine side? (Claire T ,indeed!) Receptive and ready to marry that side. I will tell you that that night is the only time I have conciously asked for an answer just before going to sleep. Perhaps this accounts for the cleverness of it all.

White chocolate block as an antitthesis of itself! Brilliant (and recalls the inverted inversion of my creme caramel/brulee mix up)I am struggling with some very specific inner opposites indeed Angela. I have been fighting down fury and anger inside me and trying to replace it with love. Not always successfully I will admit.As I write this it becomes obvious to me that my inclination towards violence is the male side I am trying to marry with the female aspect of acceptance and loving, no?

Next, hanging on to the blocks - wanting them to remain perfect. Rejoice in my martrdom even. That is me to a tee. Poor me! Ha! chop it up!I love it. What am I ready to be taught I wonder?

Next, my communication with myself being intercepted by distractions ("video games") Not real ones, cannot stand them but I did tell you that I used adrenaline sports to fend off low moods. Quite addicted to them actually.A wee bit of running away? More than a wee bit I think.

Can I communicate with myself without giving up my beloved sk8ing though? British Masters half-pipe comp coming in Sept! (masters is 30 and over in skateboarding. Funny, no?)

Angela, thank you , thank you, thank you!

xxx's, Liam

Angela

17:35 03/07/2000 

Liam,

Herein lies my intensity...

I seem to be tromping around in my brain tonight and ALL day too, in fact. It will not rest! So I'm back AGAIN. And I am simply over-joyed for you Liam! This is truly exciting!

I checked out Jane's quote to begin and it said that when there are unresolved issues in dreams you must ask WHY... So, Liam, there are two unresolved issues:

1) Why were you prepared for a lesson that did not happen?

This you may have answered in your explanation -- the martardom-poor-me-syndrome. Did you notice how you described yourself to at tee (T)...? You were not ready for the clarity?

2) Why are you having trouble communicating what it is that you want?

This seems to include those conflicting feelings of desire and guilt. What you use as an outlet for this 'fury' energy, is perhaps also something that you find pure enjoyment from. How does one marry these two feelings?

Well...

Something I noticed (in addition to the brilliant connection you have seen between this dream and the opposites from your previous dessert dream): Your first dream posting was called 'Undeniably Creme Caramel' -- the upside down dessert which was actually right side up, because it was really a brulee in the dream. Perhaps at that time you were convincing yourself things were really the opposite of what they were. In the above posting, you called the dream the 'creme brulee' dream, which, I am wondering, means that you have righted the position you were in at that time, or in other words, reversed your conditioning!!!? You are doing these things for joy -- not release anymore.

I, for one, believe that reversing conditioning is a thing of mental heroic proportions.

What can I say, but, congratulations!!! This is wonderful news.

Angela

sd

02:21 04/07/2000 

Yet another of your ping pong matches that I will print out to learn from - you are absolutely a mad genius woman and Liam, you're far more magnificent that you think- I'm on my chair clapping, waiting for more...I adore you both, sd.

Jane Anderson

09:04 04/07/2000 

Brilliant work Angela!

Isn't the cryptic detective side of dream interpretation totally fascinating?!

Brilliant work Liam!

A perfect dream incubation result married to a game unconscious.

Thank you both for a great illustration of dream interpretation in action.

Jane Anderson

Favonius

10:23 04/07/2000 

"Smiles with pride at teachers praise"

Angela

15:18 04/07/2000 

Ya know, I'm feeling kinda good too with that lovely praise...

And yes, Jane, it is totally fascinating! So much so I can't sleep sometimes! Which worries me... how am I going to interpret dreams that I don't have??

Favonius

16:48 05/07/2000 

OK, so, um, I almost hate to bring us down but....now what? How do I find out what my lesson is?How do I actually DO these things? Marry my feminine side, remove blocks (even be certain of what they are), communicate with myself. It seems this dream has been the highlight of my self communication! I guess I am asking, where do I go from here? Is this ridiculous?

Liam

Jane Anderson

18:46 05/07/2000 

Liam,

This is where the clever stuff involving doing exercises based on the symbolism within the dream comes in useful to accelerate positive change.

I give such exercises as part of Level Three Interpretations. Perhaps some people who have experienced these exercises might like to comment on their practical usefulness and give examples, either here or in the members' community forum for you.

Exercises ACCELERATE the changes.

Alternatively:

Self-understanding and re-framing in the light of new perceptions of the self is sometimes all that is required to melt the blocks (beware runny chocolate). As you change in your understanding/perception of the world, so the world (and therefore your dreams) shift too.

Dreams are NOW moments which reflect where the dreamer is at, consciously and unconsciously. Freeze frame statements, if you like. As you move on the frozen moment melts and reshapes. (More runny chocolate to remould or pour away?)

In simply opening yourself to the meaning of your dreams, in contemplating the barometer of your self, you are already shifting, changing ... already doing the work.

Jane Anderson

Angela

10:01 06/07/2000 

Liam,

I've not had Jane do an interpretation. (Just so you know Jane, I want to, but I am so addicted to the agony and victory of figuring it out myself that I've not indulged...yet.) However, I have a perfect example of practising the reversing of a block. About one year ago I was struggling intensely with the concept of living in the now. I was highly stressed and decided, rightly, that getting back into the pool would be good for me. However, I swam lengths and counted the whole time. As well I was constantly disappointed in myself when I didn't top my previous day's performance. So, there I was still living in the future -- counting my way into what I had to do. Stressing out my stress breaks.

Suddenly, one day, I just got it -- the NOW! I began swimming for time instead of lengths. No more counting, no more disappointment. And the swims became a place to let my mind wander, relax and sort. Swimming is my NOW time.

So, since reversal and opposites seems to be the theme here, what if you were to come to one of these 'block' situations, one where, say, you are doing the 'poor me' thing and instead of jumping up and running away, you actually face it straight on. Let the emotions come, maybe?

I wonder what would happen...

Angela.