I was in a car with old friends, in the back seat with my ex girlfriend * (See note.)
I don't know where we were going or where we were at but it was in the country, a small town. We kept passing buildings that people we all knew used to live in. We also passed railroad tracks.
My ex was like going through something and was telling the driver every thing she was going through. I think she was pregnant. (Even though we never had sex, what we did was the first time for both of us.)
She looked at me and started to cry. I said, was it something I did? She looked up and said yes.
Note:
* We broke up 2 years ago. I just can’t get the dream picture of her looking up at me and crying out of my head.
Dream edited for easier reading - JT, 2005
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Hello,
#1 Cars all most always symbolize your state of life. The car you travelled in carried several passengers (old friends to be exact) and a driver other than yourselve. You were a back seat passenger with your ex, and the most intriquing thing, was you did not know where you were going.
This could be an indicator that you are a follower and not a leader. But, it is nothing to be a shame about. As long as you are a live, just keeping trying. Take yourself off of others time schedule, create your own. Do you always or most of the time have to have the opinion of others? Why did you and your ex go your sepate ways? Were you influence by any of your friends, regarding your relationship with your ex, or any other decisions you have had to make? Are you most comfortable with friends from your past, how are you with meeting new friends? Are you a introvert and your ex an extrovert? As you answer these questions and more clarity will come for you.
#2 Your dream had a country backdrop/small town and railroad tracks. The country signifies in most cases, a state of mind like, remoteness, layed back attitude, undeveloped (behind in technology, fashion, ideas,etc.,) The country usually is a very peaceful place and free of drama. The railroad tracks! You said you passed up railroad tracks, or did you go across the railroad tracks? Sounds like you are at an impasse and need to make some decisions. Don't let regret hold you from your future. Prehaps you think your ex is the one for you NOW. There are trillion of women out there--chose one. And if you have one already, and she is not complimenting your life, make a decision about that situation quickly.
#3 Your ex is directing her problems to the driver of the car. Could she not talk to you? You think she's pregnant? You all did not have sex, why do you think she's having sex now? Is this one of the reasons you guys broke up? Do you miss her?
#4 She looked at you and started to cry- You asked if it was something you did? I ask you, was it something you did? But, if you always absorb the blame for others, the question you asked her would be normal. However, she did respond by saying yes. Something deep tells me she is just as much the blame as you are, even if she kept quite and did not express her concerns regarding the platonic relationship.
Good news!! You did not make her cry. Her crying comes from her own soul. She just needs someone to help her carry her water pots, and she knows you will help her.
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Hi Fab,
The driver in the dream, you mentioned that he was a leader and influenced your lives (yours more than hers). The likely hood or her communicating with him outside of your knowledge is very great. If you are really interested in getting to the meaning of the dream, maybe you should talk with him indiscreetly. The driver always, most of the time knows where he is going and the passengers.
What I mean by time schedule is this: Our society, families, significant others, jobs etc., usually have parameters set for us. Yes, your job tells you what time to be at work, but you must work your time, understand. It's how you use your time, effort, ability to get the job done should be your method. Another example would be: Ok, you went to school, usually it takes 4 years depending on the subject. However, it takes some of us a life time. If you are 75 it does not matter as long as you get the job done. You may have had a set time you would like to get married. Lets say around 30, if you did not make 30, it is truly ok. Because, everything that you must do, will get done. "many plans are in the hearts of man, but the divine plan shall prevail".
You not crossing the track, but driving along the tracks means that your path has not been made clear yet. You do not have guidance, but again you must lead/drive. However, you must get on the track, and once you do you'll move. It does not matter if you stop, fail or derail, you decide to keep going. Good news! Wherever you are the creator will be with you.
You may not want to be with your ex, but you were at one time. She has enter your spirit because of the intimacy you all shared (even though it was not sexual). There has to be residual left in your spirit in order for you to dream. Again, getting some clarity from your mutually friend may help.
You may think that you did not do anything to her, but you did--be it good, bad or indifference. If it is important again, find out. But the dialogue the two of us or having may be enough to remove the additional emotions that are there.
"Her cry comes from her own soul" means - emotions (good/bad) only emerge when there is something there. You may not have been the one to put there. Tears are a chemical that is release from the brain to the eyes. When tears are released it takes pressure of the brain. There nothing like a good cry, you agree?
"She just needs someone to help her carry her water pots" means- water pots were taken to a well and filled with water. Usually it was two pots that hung from both ends of a rod and carried around the back of the neck. Now, I don't know what she is carrying but it is a chore/burden for her. Just pray for her. We are all so connected that you maybe sub-consciously helping her carry a load.
Does she thinks about you? Yes, what her thoughts are, I don't know. But, again if it is important to you, you can always ask her. Or, just know that it is a human factor to think about those who have deposited or withdrew from our lives.
best regars, |
