Hi Booger and Angela,
Great work. Booger, sometimes the meaning of a dream is better drawn slowly, teasing it around, savouring it, asking and answering questions, taking time out to pause and to let memories, feelings and associations bubble up. You are doing this perfectly.
Notice I used the word "teasing" there - I could also have described the whole process as a mulling over, much as one might do over a glass of red wine ...there is a reason for this intro:
In your dream, the burgundy falcon passes by, the woman's hair has some red in it, she is middle-aged (?mature?) and you note her "soft complexion". As I read this I saw "red wine". Burgundy is a wine, to state the obvious, and a red wine label might easily read, "soft complexion, mature ...". Can you see a relationship here between red wine and the issues in your life then/now?
Why the teasing (of her hair in the dream)? It too was teased BACK, one of many references in the dream to back (which usually means past).
She had very blue eyes. Being acutely aware of eyes in a dream frequently draws attention to "I", the self. (Dreams play puns: eye, I.) I feel you are coming face-to-face with an aspect of your self and/or your beliefs in this part of the dream. She is staring wide-eyed as if, perhaps, either in a state of shock or truly taking something in for the first time. Is this you, taking something in for the first time?
She ... meeting a female dream character often symbolises meeting the female aspects of oneself. This is like meeting our Yin to balance our Yang, or our right brain to balance our left. In dreams we talk about our 'inner female' and 'inner male'. Our inner female is our creativity, intuition, emotions, spirituality, nurturing, receptivity .... our inner male is our assertiveness, rationality, logic, intellect, working relationship with the world, activity ...
If your too speedy journey is hallmarked by inner male characteristics, then a dream is likely to bring you, post-crash, face to face with your inner female ... requesting more balance in life.
You mention, in your reply, that you have been "bending over backwards" to make your relationship work ... another reference to "back". Consider some of the references in your dream to 'back' perhaps reflecting your feelings about "bending over backwards".
At the end of the dream you straighten your neck. Not too far left, not too far right. (Not too far bending over sideways .. or backwards.)
During the crash, the thing that stopped the car was the median strip. Median: middle: not too far right, not too far left .. in the balanced middle. In fact it was after hitting the median strip that the car landed on its wheels/ feet.
The dream suggests that YOU will best land on your feet if you find a balanced middle approach... perhaps no leaning over backwards, perhaps no speeding too fast or going too slow ... perhaps neither too much Yang nor too much Yin.
Think about how many areas of your life you can change to bring about a sense of balance. Think of the chinese notion of the Tao - the middle way - the path of balance. (You might like to read around this subject.)
In the dream your car is the same on the inside but is a different colour on the outside. Could it be, that in the changes you have been endeavouring to make, that you feel you may have changed the outside of yourself but that you are still the same on the inside?
Do the people who matter most to you in your life know the inside of you as well as they know the outside? Is there a point of balance to find here?
Angela is right with everything she says, of course .. and the two 360 degree turns are your turnarounds. Consider that 180 degree turn leads you in the opposite direction to where you were originally going, whereas a 360 degree turn takes you back to the start.
I too saw 180 k immediately as 180 degrees when you so quickly followed it with reference to 360 degree turns.
You were on the Goulburn expressway just PAST Mittagong. Here's another dream reference to 'past', 'back' .. in the past .. or just got past. Have a think about what Mittagong represents to you in EMOTIONAL terms. What have you just got past in this sense? Why would you suddenly become aware of being out of control here?
There were orchids on the median strip which brought you to a point of standing still (the car). What do orchids signify to you personally?
Once the car was landed, you floated out of the car amidst dust and debris. There is sometimes a difficulty in finding a place in a dream where you can say, "Okay, the first part of the dream is my past, this is now, and where the dream is going seems to be where I am heading." At which point in your life would you say the dust and debris started to settle? Or hasn't this happened yet?
You float out of the car as one would float out of the body - a life change - a death of the old and birth of the new - the old dust settles - all because of the median strip and the orchids.... and because the burgundy-red belief/experience finally was shocked into seeing something.
In essence, the body of your car (self, drive) was okay but the suspension was damaged (your buoyancy was affected) and the car was low to the ground (you were feeling grounded or perhaps feeling low). There is a feeling of being brought back in contact with the ground /earth/ basics.
The panel beating: could be reflecting that you feel you've taken a beating, or could be more literally beating yourself into a whole (healed) shape.
Yes, I agree it was strange that the glass wasn't broken, because when we go through a major 'breakthrough' in life and in a dream we usually see broken glass. (Glass is see-through as most of our limitations and barriers are until we break through them and then we realise, in retrospect, that they were there.)
As you were still alive in the car, I'd add a caution that perhaps you may be straightening up (your neck in the dream) but going back to being the old self without complete breakthrough. Consider this possibility.
However, the fact that you found the mid-point between your head being on the right or left side is positive. So is the blood flowing. At first you thought your neck was broken: the neck is the communication channel between the head and the heart, and a broken neck in a dream can symbolise a break between thinking and feeling: a communication break. Blood can symbolise the life force and when blood flows in a dream, no matter how gruesome, it often signifies a renewed flowing of life. The blood flow was on the left side: the left side is your Yin, female side and inner world, by the way.
So ... the conclusions are for you to draw, Booger. Beware false change to suit the expectations of others or your own (perhaps unconscious) expectations ... and choose an authentic balanced approach ...
How do you feel about all of this?
Thank you for continuing to share this dream and its meaning with other readers of the Dream Forum as this sharing alone is a great gift from you to other dreamers.
And I still know that others will ask more and point out more symbolism and thoughts on your dream ...
Oh - and on the possible abuse of your two sons, I did wonder whether the dream reference to TWO 360 degree turns might reflect the way your life may have been turned upside down in this way. Also the terrible questioning you have had to endure regarding possible abuse and the issues of trust/non-trust may have touched upon issues in your own life of abuse and trust which are being addressed by the dream. This is not to say that you have been sexually abused, but to say that your dreaming self may be looking at other issues such as feelings of emotional abuse, and issues of trust in other areas of your life ...
Wishing you light to see through this.
Jane Anderson |
