Hi Jazzed,
Some thoughts and yes, questions:
The amount of money (security and freedom) you thought you wanted but when spoken was actually more. Are you seeking more security and freedom for yourself than you think? Is there where the denial could be coming in? Are you wanting more freedom and security from your life than you are currently giving yourself or allowing yourself to have?
Running to the airport to go somewhere - Is there something in your life you are eagerly wanting to take off i.e an idea, a project or are you wanting to take off and soar to new heights? or is there some aspect/layer of Self you are wanting to be rid of as in take off?
Are you feeling like you are not totally prepared yet to do whatever it is you want to do?
You say others are standing around "looking busy" were they actually busy or were they just pretending they were? Do you feel like you are standing still?
Are you wanting to obtain your "ticket to freedom?"
Are you needing to give all that you see your Son as providing you with to yourself? i.e. love, protection etc.
Was your life at this time feeling dull and grey, with very little growth occuring and an inability to find beauty in all things?
There is a Native American term "to walk in Beauty" and it refers to walking our Earth walks (our lives) in balance and harmony and in finding beauty in all we encounter, not unlike a small child does.
Even though you say here that you have embarked on a new spiritual path is it bringing beauty, balance and harmony into your life?
Some thoughts on directions from my perspective:-
East is where the sun rises, the beginning of a new day, new beginnings.
West is where it sets, the end of the day which brings about the night and usually reflection, introspection, sleep and dreams.
South is the direction of childlike energy and healing.
North is the direction of elder energy, the road of Spirit and wisdom.
Whilst your logical mind may think something is supposed to run in a certain direction, i.e. when you woke from a previous dream convinced the river ran as it did in your dream the direction it or anything runs in the dream can be an indication of which way your life is heading.
e.g. I was hesitant about leaving a long term relationship. Eagle turned up one day as I was debating what to do. He circled three times above my head and went to the south-east. I knew like him it was time to leave and I landed up living south-east of where I had been.
The river Nile in this dream is running, just as you are (to the airport) but you have no sense of cardinal directions - as in your dream about Florence, are you feeling directionless?
Also in relation to feeling vulnerable and exposed it is usually when you let yourself be that the most growth, healing and change occurs.
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